I Miss You

This one m writing for my dad. I lost him last year, gone way early, and I miss him, it took me a lot to put it through my words, I didn't know what greiving is.. I never lost someone that close to me, ya I did lost my grandparents but never knew the man I love the most will leave me that early.

I miss you Papa, I know you love me, even when I can't hug or see you. I know you are watching me from somewhere, I m trying to be the good daughter you always wanted me to be.. looking after mummy and Bharti, trying I could fix the void created after you are not hear, life is exactly how you told us to be, that we are on our own now, we are really very grateful for all the things you created and left behind for us, we couldn't have survived a day without you, if you didn't did what you did. Yes, people are meaner than what they were when you were hear, but we are trying to go with the flow. I have not a single day grieved about you properly, only you know, what m going through in life, its difficult everyday without you, knowing I haven't got anyone's back, but I have to look after those two members of my family. I wish it could have been easier in soo many ways but I struggle every day. I never shared this with anyone, I don't think someone will ever understand. I can't describe each day how badly I want to hear you calling me "Beta!" And rest, me crying my eyes out and telling all my problems I faced that day and you giving me all the strength need to make it. Seeing mummy this broken always makes me sad and depressed and sometimes I avoid having conversations with her, which only make me feel like worst daughter someone can have. I hope good days may come by and I could remember you with all the smiles, once again may be.. I want to be with you Papa one again..I love you..

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